Your body isn’t used to food right now so of course it won’t react well to it. The important thing is just to eat in small amounts until your body readjusts to it. I honestly don’t know how to make it better right now but by eating a little bit at a time, it will probably stop bugging you soon.
I understand. It’s so frustrating when that happens. However, three weeks is awesome! Keep reminding yourself of that, and remember—we can’t go backwards. You know more now than you did three weeks ago, and that’s pretty awesome. You can do it again. If people are disappointed, it’s because they love you and want to see you better. It’s hard to deal with sometimes, but it truly is a sign of love.
Three weeks clean is such a huge freaking accomplishment. I am so so so proud of you. And you will make it. Your emotions are like a storm. Eventually the storm ends. Eventually the storm runs out of rain. You just have to make it until then sweetheart. You can do it. I know you can. I know your emotions are so high right now. I know you can do this. I know how hard it can be. The reason it isn’t pointless though is because I know that you want happiness. you want to be happy and to have a great life and to go far in life. And recovery is the way to get there. And the thing that will stop you from being happy, is self-harm.
I’m so proud of you for coming here when your urges got too strong. Do you think you can stay on your computer until you absolutely have to fall asleep or turn on tv or a movie and just watch it while you are trying to sleep sweetheart? Or taking a shower that is too hot or too cold?
I’m so so glad that you have calmed down since then! That’s so great. It’s okay to stay on the computer. Why don’t you stay on until you literally have to fight to fall asleep? And do you think you can try some distractions like watching your favorite movie or listen to music or playing a game or writing or watching a tv show series? We have a list of distractions if you want them or helpful links or reasons to live or we have a tag of some great quotes that are really helpful here. I really want you to keep fighting sweetheart. You are so strong and you can get through this. I know you can. You will look back at this moment five years from now an realize how strong you were, are.
Honestly, cutting is so freaking dangerous. Are there any other ways you can bring down your emotions. I have borderline too and I know how long it can take to bring down intense emotions and I’m so sorry that you are having to deal with that. You are trying to cope with your problems and therapy should be helping with that but sadly it doesn’t’ seem like it is. I’m so so sorry that you are struggling though. Do you think you could try and find distractions? We have a big list here and a big list of reasons to stay alive here.
You did perfectly
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You have permission to eat. Even if you:
- haven’t exercised
- eaten too much yesterday
- eaten too much today
- don’t know the exact nutritional value of the meal
- have gained weight
- aren’t feeling hungry ‘enough’
- feel like you don’t deserve it
We are here for that kind of stuff as well love. Whether it is panic attacks or self-harm or eating disorders or whose parents are going through a divorce, etc. We are willing to talk to anyone who is having a hard time.
Thank you so so much for sharing that with us! I am definitely posting it right now! Thank you so much. It is absolutely wonderful! You have definitely inspired me and it really was empowering so thank you!